Really...

Sometimes, i feel that none of my friends are true to me.

To me, a true friend is someone who'll go through thick and thin together. Solve a problem together. Console you when you're down. Understands you for who you are. Remembers your birthday. Lends a listening ear. Knows what you want/like. Makes you happy. And most importantly, trust & loyalty.

No one seem to understand how i feel. Even if they do, they don't even do anything about it, they'll just let it pass, thinking that i'll be strong enough to handle. I seriously feel so god damn disappointed.

And i seriously!! really!! got to stop putting in high hopes because when i do and the expectation is not met, i'll feel damn fucked up.

Sometimes, i really feel like asking,

"Do you really, sincerely treat me as a friend? 

or are you just making use of me?"   

However, i know that there are friends who are true to me and i really appreciate in whatever they've helped me and whatever they've done to make me feel happy and at ease.

If you're feeling guilty reading this, then i'm happy because now you'll know how i'm feeling and i just hope that you will stop treating me like this and spare a small little thought for me. (Yes, even a small tiny little thought will make me happy.)

To end this post, i'm just going to ask...

"Where are you, my true friend(s)?" 

Sorry, random ranting just to make me feel better.
Goodnight.